As I write this, I am currently in bed with hot Chinese tea, listening to the church bells ring from a street away. I am in Zurich and ever so slightly jet lagged. These pictures were shot a few weeks ago but I still remember that day and how much fun it was. I thought that once I was in Europe I would be like, ‘ugh Singapore, I don’t feel a connection there at all and I definitely don’t want to go back’. But I was so wrong. As soon as I touched down in Heathrow two days ago, I was thinking about Percy and Gatsby, my fluffy dwarf lionhead bunny and labrador, respectively. One night when I woke up at who- knows- what- time, I was wondering what bed I was in- my parent’s house? My old flat in London? My room in Singapore? It was so disorientating, lying there in the dark, trying to figure out where I was in those ten seconds before I drifted off into a deep sleep again. What I have realised from it all is that it actually didn’t matter where I was, I felt a bond with all of those places that surpasses time. It’s a bond strong enough that memories can turn into reality, albeit while I am half conscious. |
Recently, I met up with a friend whom I used to work within my first year in Singapore and she kept saying how much I had grown. Back from one of my older posts entitled ‘Begin Again‘, which was a pivotal time in my personal life last year, to my last post, ‘8 lessons on adult life that I learnt from 4 cities‘, that is definitely true. So here’s the thing, none of us are ‘stuck’ in one situation or place in life, none of us have to accept where we are if we aren’t happy about it. We have to find our own freedom, not just sit around waiting for imaginary keys to be handed to us to unlock our imaginary cells. I think this is why, sitting amongst pillowy hills of my white duvet, filtering through pictures for my blog, scrolling through Instagram, waiting for the strength to get up and get dressed for the day, I can say that I am happy. Not because I am in a certain place doing a certain thing, but because I feel at peace knowing that I can be anywhere that I want to be. |
photos by Chrystal, @chrystlm and Jay, @soulforsouls
Tinselrack dress
Forever21 accessories
Alexis Bittar earrings
Saint Laurent bag
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